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Date : Saturday, December 5
Time : 12:36 AM Title : :/ Okay, turns out she's not angry with me.
Okay, okay, I think I'm really becoming super sensitive about all this already but I'm really scared of broken friendships now. Like, really, really scared.
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Time : 12:21 AM Title : blahblahblah the previous post was rubbish so don't look at it. I was probably having moodswings or something.
It was at night so I had some confusion with the previous problems so yupp. Anyways, holidays are freaking boring. Should have went for the interview for toy r us. Stupid man. I even feel like doing maths but till now, I haven't cos I lazy to take the shinglee book. I also tell myself to exercise the next day but haven't. SO I made a decision to wake up early tomorrow to go jog and I must cos I need to lose weight asap! I also need to get rid of my pimple face n0w.Whatever, whatever you may say but now really have a pimple face. I'm looking at jobs now, I need to keep myself busy to have less pimples(weird, blame my body). DIE I created another trouble again due to the previous post. I think.
Date : Tuesday, December 1
Time : 12:07 AM Title : SO, is it my problem again?
IS itttt?! Previous friendship problems solved and now another one. And it's totally ironic when I'm feeling the same way and all.... You know what, !@#$%^&*()_+|/ I'm seriously tired of all these stuff. My mind is all filled with blah's comment of how failure we are in planning, and I really hate it. Seriously I hate all hese shi and I really don't feel like caring or apologising anymore. Do you know how tiring it is? Maybe not because I'm always the one doing all these. Everyone cares for you but you do not realise it. Do you know how I feel? I felt rejected, left out too, and it's every time. But why are you saying all these now??! I'm really tired now. Fuck off, friendship problems. I'm a bitch and that's it.
Date : Monday, November 30
Time : 12:18 AM Title : YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL Okay I'm playing Mika's "Big Girl(You Are Beautiful)" repeatedly to brainwash myself.
Hopefully. :D MORE COURAGE MORE COURAGE MAN!
Date : Sunday, November 29
Time : 11:45 PM Title : AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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Time : 11:25 PM Title : ?! I don't know why I tend to feel inferior easily. I hate it when I walked on the streets and people just stare at me or something.
I know they don't even care a shit about me, but I can't help it that they are thinking how loser or ugly I look. And YES I know this ain't true at all, I know it but I just can't help thinking this way. Every time I go out with my friends, my confidence will be lowered again. Because they always looked so fabulous. They got such nice clothes. And I know, so what?!, it's only clothes right? why even bother how people look at you?! But I just can't. I know this is damn stupid, I really want to put a stop to all this. AND especially after prom. WAHLAO. Okay lor, everyone go stylist lor. To tell the truth, I really wished to run home when I saw so many pretty people there. I think I'm actually more confident when I was in the clinic wearing a mask because everyone will be wearing a mask too and no one could make out my face and my ugly teeth. I really hate my teeth. AND yes again, I know they ain't that bad and all, but every time I take photo, I have to think very carefully how my teeth will look like. I like flashlights because the light will help to hide the gaps. I'm really envious of those people that have perfect teeth. Their smiles will never goes wrong. If I have photoshop, I will edit every photo with me showing my teeth. I really want to stop feeling so insecure and sensitive :( Like after that thing, even when people send me short smses or never reply me, I would think that they are angry with me and even started to cry. Crazy? Indeed. Sometimes I really hate myself for thinking so much. Sometimes I really feel like running away to a place that I don't know. Where no one could see me or where everyone wore the same and have the same faces so everyone won't be so judgmental anymore. Why am I like that? I feel like slapping myself.
Date : Thursday, November 26
Time : 12:16 AM Title : Promamamama    Got Abalone! But I was damn surprised everyone spent so much money on this la. Made me feel so boring. I feel like I look like going to school. Rather disappointed cos I wanted to look like "boomz" but in the end I look like "oh." Well I guessed it's over. People were really scaring me when I stepped in the hotel. Ugh. I was so envious of people wearing togas and tubes because I can't wear them :( Seriously I know people are giving the "yeahh, right" face but it's true. My fats were bulging out to say hello to people when I tried them on please. If they weren't, OF COURSE I would have wore them. Nice right!!! Lol random. I want money.
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Time : 12:14 AM Title : I WANT TO BUY EVERYTHING ON INDIESINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Date : Saturday, November 21
Time : 11:18 PM Title : ugly My face is rounder and my teeth are getting worse.
I want to go stylebyjury for free makeover. |
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